‘Twas the night before Christmas when I started to write…

‘Twas the night before Christmas when I started to write

What would I jot down?  Many nails did I bite.

And then it hit me, so I began to type

Hurriedly, quickly, the ideas were still ripe.

 

Here, let me tell you of my adventure so far

The start of the year was less than sub par.

For I was broken, but not of bone mind you

My heart was in pieces, blackened and blue.

 

I was hurt but not lost; I trudged on ahead.

I was down but not out, I was far from dead.

Over few months time, I could smile once more.

May opened up my first happiness door.

 

Hosting RT Vegas was a dream of mine

Rooster Teeth Vegas fans, ‘twas our time to shine.

Thank you Dane, Daniel, Dustin, Michael and Nick

You guys are so awesome, my very top pick!

 

And extending my thanks to the very group

that threw our party for such a huge loop!

What group you ask? Why it’s the B Team!

It took much willpower not to fangirl and scream

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But my thanks for Rooster Teeth ends not in May.

July 5th is marked as such a special day.

I’m an RTX Guardian, hip hip, hooray!

My happiness level is more than I can say!

 

I was a noob but paired with a great crew.

Surrounded by friends some old and some new

Thank you so much to our leading lady

We couldn’t have done it without you, Caiti!

 

A fantastic con, my words are at a loss

Demarais, my fav Hobbit, you’re such a cool boss!

Such great memories I will cherish forever

My love for these people will never be severed.

 

Parts of 2013 had also brought tears.

Two friends were taken, too early in their years

Always remembered, their legacies live on

Through those they are still here, never truly gone.

 

What to learn from this, answers there are many

I say cherish loved ones, more than dimes and pennies.

Mike and Knuckles you are thought of every day

You both are missed, so much more than I can say

 

And then in August, my dad became dog sitter

For I was off to DragonCon thanks to friends from Twitter.

A weekend full of panels, drinking and more

So many cosplays I saw were seriously hardcore!

 

I could not believe how happy I felt.

I met new friends, they made my heart melt.

Dauna, Emma, Kelly, Eric, Kathleen,

DA2 cosplay group, best cosplays I’ve seen

 

Karissa, Liz, Miranda and Scott,

Best roomies ever for the con ticket I bought.

Tymber, Adriaan, Amanda, Eric, Susanne…

HUGS ALL THE FACES, as many as I can

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Aaryn, Aidan, Dave, Bioware men I adore

Team Fangirls sends kisses, hugs and more! (as in love ya pervs =P)

I drank with Steve Jaros and Chris Avellone

Leading men in the industry, mind = blown

 

And to my leather making friends Misty and Lance

Heart your faces for giving cosplay a chance.

Dragon Age Tallis debuted at this con.

Be proud you guys, many hearts it has won.

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And as it does annually, my birthday was here

This one was special, the best in many years.

So grateful for all who came to celebrate

Shots, bull riding, beer pong… God it was late!

 

Looking back on everything, I couldn’t believe

How I started the year in sadness and grief.

But how that has changed because of family and friends,

I want to hug all your faces, my lovely godsends.

 

Shortly after I found myself in a pinch!

Surely this would make me a Grinch!

I lost my job, but I held my head high.

Company merge be damned, I refused to cry.

 

I feel liberated so it’s a blessing in disguise.

Seriously, don’t feel bad for me guys.

I’m keeping busy, finally raising life’s bar

A writing project called Fallout Lonestar!

 

Many doors will fly open, at least… I hope.

Writing is medicinal for it is how I cope.

But life is a mystery, destination unseen

You continue being better than you have ever been.

 

And now here we are on Christmas Day

I want to tell you one more thing, if I may.

My dad has worked for the last twenty plus years

Through this day but now we’ve switched gears!

 

He has the day off and now we can spend

The holiday as a whole family again!

So comes an end of my twenty thirteen tale.

It was full of win and of some fail.

 

How you spend today, I wish you this

May your holiday season be full of joy and bliss,

So to you my loves, I raise my beer

I say Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

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I know it’s not beer… work with me here…

I treat Thanksgiving as a time to reflect on the last 11 months of the year

I can’t tell you how to see Thanksgiving or how you should spend it. But I can tell you how I see one of the craziest times of the year. I don’t focus on the newest sales or worry about which stores to hit come Black Friday madness. I don’t even think about what I’m going to wear to the family dinner. With all the holiday propaganda that is shoved into our faces, we can’t help but be affected by the subliminal messages, some good, some bad. On the good side, we are told to be grateful. But all of us have different things to be grateful for. Let me tell you about the downs in my life this year.

My nearly 4 year relationship ended. Won’t go into details, but it was a difficult time for me.

Two people that I knew (one a really good friend) passed away this year. They were both around my age. I’m 29 years old.

I lost my job due a company merge.

Now let me tell you about the ups in my life this year.

I held a small gathering called Rooster Teeth Las Vegas in May and I made friends with even more RT community members.

Months later, I was fortunate enough to volunteer for the Rooster Teeth convention called RTX, and I witnessed such an amazing display of camaraderie, friendship, and leadership with the staff and fellow volunteers that I worked with for those three days.

Thanks to the presence I keep on social media, I made some fantastic friends. We interacted with each other for a good portion of a year, but we did not actually meet until DragonCon 2013. I will be friends with these people for the rest of my life. They made me forget my depression and see myself in a new light.

I may have lost my job, but I am focusing on what I really want to do with my life now. I am taking charge of my life and doing all I can to get into the video game industry. Just by networking and keeping tabs on the industry, I’ve made many connections, and I am so grateful to have met them.

Being a geeky woman, I’ve learned that women who enjoy the nerdier things of life were being harassed and bullied for being who they are. I was able to create a very special project this year. I collaborated with people from all over the world to create a video that shows men who love geeky women as they are and geeky women expressing their thanks for that special support and encouragement. The Thank You Project is one of the best projects I have ever done.

In order to gain experience in the field, I’m now working as a writer on a very cool project called Fallout: Lonestar. This would not have been possible if I did not go to DragonCon. Thanks Twitter friends!

I watched Ender’s Game with my mother. This is the first time I have ever watched a movie on the big screen with just my mother. I can’t even explain how unique and awesome this experience was.

I had the most amazing birthday this year. It reminded me that I should feel that I am special and that I should be happy. I smiled so much during my birthday this year that I forgot I was ever sad earlier in the year.

I managed to raise over 1K for the Extra Life charity.

I am also currently working on a cool project called the Mass Effect Cast Cosplay Project for PAX East 2014 with Karissa Barrows that will feature the voice actors from the Mass Effect series. This project is partnered with St Jude’s.

So based on the lists above and when I add in my family, friends, and loved ones, I can say with confidence that I am a very lucky person. No year is perfect. There’s going to be crap that you experience every year, and there’s going to be awesome things that happen every year. That’s life. When it’s going tough and you can’t think straight and you can’t see through the tears, hang in there. It will get better. Focus on the good things and take charge and go out to find your happiness. Life will not work around you. When you really sit down and think about what you have going for you, it makes all the negative seem that much more insignificant.

This year, I’m going to think about the positive list above and I’m going to take that with me into the new year. Lists like these should serve as a daily reminder not an annual one. I suggest you make your own list and you do the same. So be thankful, be safe, and I will see you guys after I stuff myself full of turkey and mash potatoes.

Happy Thanksgiving.