Livestreaming Bloodborne to help a friend beat cancer

I was going to do a write-up on Bloodborne as I completed the game a couple weeks ago, but since then, I received some distressing news from a very dear friend. Shelly and I have been friends since about 8th grade, and while we drifted apart after graduation, we reconnected about five years ago. I was ecstatic to find that we had similar interests in video games, cosplay and shared a common love of the geeky culture. I was also very saddened to learn that she had many medical ailments including Crohn’s disease, iron deficiency and a very weak immune system. When we would plan some outings, there would be times when she couldn’t make it simply because she was too weak to leave her home. Even through all that, she still managed to help me with a couple video collaborative projects and she made time for me when she could.

She has never complained about her condition. She never blamed anyone else for them and has never projected any negative feelings in general regarding them. With her, it was always about living life to the fullest and never taking anything for granted. She has always placed others before her, and I believe, is the very definition of altruism. Very recently, she found out that she had colon cancer. You know what she did? She shed a ton of tears, she informed family and friends, and then she went out and voted because what happens in her country matters to her. She and her husband are currently traveling to Ohio to seek treatment in the medical facilities there and as of today, they are waiting for results from numerous biopsies to determine if more surgeries are needed or if they will go straight to chemo.

I want to help her. Every year, I participate in video game related charity livestreams to raise donations for sick children and their families. This time, I will be livestreaming for someone close to my heart and I will be featuring her gofundme page on my channel. I don’t have a lot of money, but what I can do is entertain people and bring awareness to what is going on in her life.

Why Bloodborne? As I said, I completed the game not too long ago, and I told myself that I wouldn’t play it again because it was set at a level of difficulty that was pretty devastating to my psyche. I know how that sounds. But when you play something over and over and over again and you fail at it over and over and over again, it begins to affect you. I don’t know how I managed to beat it, but I did and that was quite an accomplishment for me. I was quite proud of that, but I said that I would shelve Bloodborne for the foreseeable future. And then I read about Shelly’s update. As weird as this sounds, Bloodborne seems like the perfect game to play for something like this. No matter how angry and upset I will be at the game, those feelings pale in comparison to what Shelly is experiencing. To me, that is fantastic motivation to livestream as long as I can. If she’s going to battle cancer, then I can take on a video game to help her in her fight.

Thank you to everyone who has shared Shelly’s page and/or donated. Seeing people come together to help her has warmed my heart. There aren’t enough words to express how grateful I am, how thankful she is. I text her a few times over the last couple days, and she cried several times because she is in disbelief that so many people who don’t know her are willing to help and support her. You guys are wonderful. I hope to see you this weekend.

Kicking cancer’s ass livestream starts March 5, 2016 at 9am PST

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Extra Life continues on until the end of the year!

Rooster Teeth had a big day for their Extra Life livestream. It is always phenomenal to watch them do their thing, and it’s even better to see the community come together and absolutely destroy the donation goals set by Jack and Caiti.

As you know, many community members, including myself, are raising donations as well. This year, my personal goal is $1500, and I am leading a small team with a team goal of $2000.

I will be doing my own livestream this weekend, mostly likely starting out with the Alien Isolation DLC because you know… I am entertaining as hell when I’m scared out of my mind. I will also be livestreaming Fallout 4 as well. Fair warning, I will probably take two hours just on character creation.

I have currently raised $680 of my $1500 goal and I am still going strong! Just remember, if you donate $15 or more, you will get entered into a raffle for the following prizes:

And very recently, I came into this gem.

It doesn’t have all RT signatures, but it has a crapton of them.

So if you are still able to donate, please help me make it to my personal goal. You can donate here If you cannot donate because you kicked so much ass by helping other Extra Lifers, I humbly ask if you can share my page.

Thank you so much to everyone who has donated so far. You truly made my birthday memorable and wonderful, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time, donating your money, and spreading the word about my Extra Life page to help make my birthday wish come true.

I made paper! And I made a cover! And I combined them! And made a journal!

I was introduced to the concept of papermaking a few weeks ago, and I was completely fascinated by it. I decided to try out my hand in it, and just so happened that the person who brought this to my life has a birthday coming up. Now that he has received the finished product, I can share this with you guys.

Papermaking (within the DIY world) in its simplest form is taking unwanted paper, breaking it down and recreating it. I took old mail, credit card applications, coupons, ads, magazine etc…, shredded them down, blended them with water and poured the slurry into a mold. Afterward I had to press the water out and wait for the pages to dry. The type of paper you shred determines the texture and color of the new paper. I still have yet to figure out the perfect formula for this, but the pages I made did not disappoint.

After I had about 15 pages that I loved, I moved on to book binding. This particular journal relied on cardboard, fabric glue, xacto knives and a hot glue gun. It’s all about measuring and patience at this point. If you follow me on Twitter, you saw me rage out a few times. But the finished product… I couldn’t be happier.

I was afraid that the pages may not bend very well, but the 15 pages I chose worked like a charm. Overall, I made about 30 pages, but not all of them worked out well. Something like requires a lot of trial and error, but if you are patient, and you open to learning where you went wrong, your success is all the more rewarding. Creating a birthday present for someone is also motivation to do a good job.

I made a vine showing off the journal. 

I fully intend on making more journals. The entire process from start to finish is incredibly relaxing to me (even though I was irritated in some areas), but the accomplished feeling I had when I was done only encouraged me to create more. I love making things, and even better, I love making things for people who appreciate them as much as I do.  It will be YEARS before I can even begin to master something like, but I love being able to do it.

For papermaking, this link was helpful.

For the bookbinding process, I used this link as a template. Due to the nature of the paper, I couldn’t follow each step, but this tutorial was very helpful.

If you guys decide to try this out, let me know! I would love to see the progress!

Keep creating, my loves. ❤

For the troops! I’m participating in Operation Supply Drop this year!

This is it! This is the first year I am participating in Operation Supply Drop. I’ve been wanting to participate in more charity programs in addition to Extra Life, so this is my attempt to do so. I’ve created a goal of $300 and I will be livestreaming (most likely Alien Isolation) on May 16th, 2015.

If you can donate even a dollar to my page, I will be forever thankful. Lately, I’ve been down on myself, but when I step back and look at the bigger picture, I have my health for the most part, I’m still able to provide for myself and my dogs, and I still have all of you in my life. I’m not doing so bad. So! I would like to be in a position where I can help out our troops overseas, and thus created my personal donation page for this year’s Operation Supply Drop program.

And I did say I will be livestreaming. As my last livestream session with Evil Within was quite entertaining for people, I will most likely play a horror game. You can tune in on my Twitch page. I may even have some prizes to give out! *Hint hint

I thank you for your support, and I look forward to gaming with you guys on May 16th!

DISCOUNT CODE GIVEAWAY WINNER: One of the few times where how others see you is highly relevant

Even from a young age, we are taught “you shouldn’t care about what others think of you,” and I agree with that statement, but only partially. The saying usually applies to people who go out of their way to belittle you or be unforgivably condescending. Often times, there is no just reason for those people to behave in such a way; again, some people just want to watch the world deteriorate. In those cases, you really shouldn’t give a fragglesnap about what that person thinks of you.

But in times of “hey, nominate your favorite person to receive a discount on a convention badge and tell me why they deserve it”, I think it’s pretty damn cool to read up on the reasons behind these nominations. Rooster Teeth will be selling their convention tickets later today, and those who attended their Let’s Play Live event a month ago received unique discount codes to use for RTX badges. I was chosen as a volunteer for RTX, therefore, I don’t have to purchase a badge. I decided to give my code away to someone else, but the catch is, someone has to nominate you to receive that code.

I posted up the little contest on the RT site, on my Twitter and FB. Some names I recognize from years of interaction on the site, and other names were completely new to me. And I have to admit, reading some of the stories that were sent to me gave me all the fuzzy feelings. Not only did these stories serve as an official nomination for my contest, but the people who were nominated were genuinely surprised that others thought so highly of them. It’s nice to be reminded that you matter to someone. Even in its slightest form, having that recognition can really change the perspective on how one looks at oneself.

I know all too well how easy it is to feel like you are nothing, that you only exist to take up space. You get caught up in your life, in work, in a set routine and you forget your very existence can actually mean the world to the people around you. So please, do not forget that. People recognize what you do, what you say, the work and effort you put into supporting others, and although it is not always acknowledged, people do see the value you bring into their lives.

That being said, not one but THREE winners have been chosen! Other community members were kind enough to give me their codes hoping that they would make someone’s day. So thank you very much to Mark Belanger and Mark Messmore for donating your discount codes to the community!

And the winners aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeee……





Congratulations, you guys! I shall be contacting you shortly. I hope I will be able to see you at RTX and hug you! Remember, someone thought of you for this little contest, so don’t forget that you’re super awesome. I’m being super serial.


A tribute to Thedas, the world of Dragon Age


I finally finished a video project I had been working on for a little over a year. In preparation for DragonCon 2013, my friends over at Tuatha Armory built a fantastic Tallis (Dragon Age 2 DLC character) cosplay for me. I had been introduced to a group of people who specialized in Dragon Age cosplay and every year at DragonCon, they hold a large gathering and walk in the official DragonCon parade.

This was the first time I cosplayed in a very long time, so I felt rather scared and lonely. Lance Hayes (creator of Tuatha Armory) wanted to take some shots of the completed armor and I thought I would document the project. I started arranging words in my head, mapping out feelings regarding my new cosplay and how I felt about Dragon Age in general. So I wrote a poem. I love narrating, so my main thought was to write a snippet about Tallis moving forward with her life as Tal Voshoth (one who has left the Qun). Lance and his wife Misty filmed a few scenes of me doing random things in the mountains and then I thought about the cosplay group I would be seeing in the months to come.

So I took to Facebook and asked various cosplayers if they would be willing to let me film them in different scenarios and they were very gracious with their time. I had a rough cut of the poem and overall idea of the film, but I didn’t have enough footage. So I waited until I could gather just a few more seconds, yes seconds, of new footage at this year’s DragonCon, and I am glad I waited. inquisition’s new soundtrack and video that BeatDownBoogie took of our group allowed me to complete the project.

Once I had the visuals, I had to write and narrate accordingly. This whole project began with my feeling lonely and then it evolved into feeling accepted by this cosplay group. It got me thinking about the Dragon Age community as a whole. The DA team at Bioware created this huge, beautiful world and it has been expressed time and time again that the team loves their community. They love seeing cosplay, writing, video and other projects done by the community. Our gender, our race, and our backgrounds never mattered to Bioware. If we had a love for Dragon Age, then by all means, we were encouraged to show it. And in turn, they respond with a love for us. That’s what I wanted to express in this video.

As a character in Dragon Age, we experience so much. We develop friendships and make enemies, we take down monsters and armies, and we gather people together to fight for a cause we believe in. What we experience on an emotional level in the Dragon Age games is not much different than real life. I’ve made genuine friends with the people in this cosplay group, so this is also my thank you to them.

I don’t know what my life would like without Bioware and without these people. I’d rather not imagine it because surely, it would be a boring life.

A Dragon Age Tribute

Gentlemen: Thank you for loving us as we are. Ladies: Thank you for being who you are

A little over a year ago, I created and launched a video called “The Thank You Project.” It seems like a good time for this video to resurface. My reasoning behind it was to show a different perspective concerning the unnecessary harassment women were receiving. The crime? Being who they are and expressing a passion for what they love.

Women were being treated in a horrible way by men and rather than fight back directly, I decided to find a different group of men who love all these women for being nerdy and geeky. The response I received from my male friends and acquaintances was surprising, overwhelming and nothing short of amazing to me. I even received the support from classy gentlemen like Aidan Scanlan from Bioware, Chris Demarais, Blaine Gibson, and Brandon Farmahini from Rooster Teeth, and one of my favorite inspirational Youtubers, Zach Anner. Everyone who submitted a vid was supportive, accepting and absolutely genuine.

Because of that, I also collaborated with some of my female friends to express our gratitude. People should not have to fear their passions or anything they love. If you love video games, comic books, cosplay, table top games, movies, music… whatever makes you who you are, embrace it. There are days when it seems the world is against you (like in recent weeks), but please remember there are those in that same world who love you. Just as you are. Support each other, love one another, and bring positivity and light into this world.

To the men who stand up for us and see us as fellow nerds and geeks, thank you from the bottom of our hearts.

To the ladies who suffer from unspeakable harassment, this video is meant to give you hope and perspective that there are men out there who support you. Please never stop being your beautiful, sassy, empowered, geeky selves.